The Pham Obsession

I never meant to scare or hurt you. The anonymous phone calls, emails, African voodoos and stalking was the only way for me to be closer to you, physically and mentally. Your face, your nose, your cheeks, your eyes, your mouth, and missing front teeth was just beautiful. The camera really went right up there, and honestly there are no flaws to be seen. When i finished watching that Youtube video, i knew, without a doubt, that you were the key to my chain. i went out of my league just for you; i moved viet schools, tutor and even to a new high school. So far its going great. I managed to have a small conversation with your mom at viet school and sit directly opposite your sister in tutor, and soon, after the school holidays i'll get the chance to see you after school when you come and pick up ailannibabes. Words cannot explain how much they both mean to me, because whats your family, is also mine. Although we don't know each other very well, or you might not even know who i even am, but i'm hoping you're free sometime this week? Perhaps, April 1st. 1pm. Northland. K-Mart. ill be the one in 3/4 flares and bright yellow 'Ms. Cheeky' Tee shirt. (: PHAT UNDEHH, i will love you, always and forever babe.

A memory I could not forget

Our eyes locked from across the aisle down Coles Supermarket. Staring through his eyes, I could feel a sense of warm love. Those eyes gave me a feeling that he was truly the one. Without thinking, my first instinct was to walk towards him. Step by step, as i got closer, i could feel my heart beat faster and faster. My neck was getting sweaty and my asthma was starting to come back again, after several years. Just before i could approach him, big brown boxes awkwardly from above fell from his hands. Slowly, one by one, he picked them up. This was when i realised i was down the wrong aisle for what i needed. I walked to Aisle 3, and suddenly the Coles PA system started playing dramatic Korean music. I looked back at him, feeling sympathetic. His eyes were closed, reaching out towards me. His back slid from the wall, downwards. His mouth tried to tell me something i could not pick up. Just standing there with Michelle, not knowing what to do, was uncomfortable. This was when ... the AWKWARD TURTLE came in handy. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! sorry i just had to do that, but still LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! <> Okay, back to the topic, Since that very day, I've been going to Coles on a daily basis just to see you, and I'm sure Michelle has done the same. For the past 4 months, where have you been? I still have not seen those beautiful eyes that once laid into mines .. :(

I read your blog, so its time you read mine

Now that Ive stopped talking to you Life's been a roller coaster the past few weeks And this roller coaster has lots of exciting turns And there have been so many times I've smiled so big it hurts my teeth :D You know? Fuck you. I hope you cry. And treat your boxing bag like its all your fears and problems rolled into one And face the period of 'fuck it all' You say you actually care for people? WELL PFSHH THAT, all you want is chicks, hot ones like uyen van. And all you want it attention, and trust me, you've got a lot of it. And you re a pimp, well at least you try to be one .. but who am i to judge, since I'm a groupie right ? Stop making others feel sorry for you and your problems. Just suck it up, everyone else has problems as well, not just you and we don't complain. I guess things are better this way right? Because you'll have one less person going "Ooh yeah, your so awesome, your so cool, lets stay up till 3chatting on msn, and then go to the sick as Melbourne Central to watch Dear John and go to Moomba'" And that's pre much it (: Life goes on. The shopaholics keep shopping. The tanners keep tanning The haters keep hating. And you can just go with the flow. While i block you entirely out of my life. I hope you enjoy life. Keep smiling, without me yeah? And all the best. EW. NOT.

Tony on Chapel

OMG Tony Bianco is opening soon on CHAPEL ST ON THE 8th APRIL! AND i hear theres gonna be plenty of giveaway giftbags (L)___(L) IM IN LUURVVEE

is my new layout SEXY OR SEXY?

WHATS WRONG MSN?

WELL IM JUSTTT PEEEEEEEEEED OFF RIGHT NOW! WHAT IS THIS SHIZZ? WHY ISNT MSN WORKING? IS IT A SIGN THAT THE WORLD IS DYING? LIFE IS SOO DAMN HARD WHEN MSN ISNT WORKING. MSN IS LIKE MY SECOND HOME BESIDES FB. I WILL PUNCH THE PERSON WHO DID THIS TO MSN IN THE FACE. JUST SERIOUSLY, TALKING ON FB IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO LAGGGY, AND NO ONE HAS SKYPE, AND TXTING COSTS 25C, AND EBUDDY ARE FOR COOLS KIDS UNLIKE MYSELF. SO WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO? JUST FB ON PPLS WALL? ITS SOO INCONVENIENT! PLEASE MSN PLEASE JUST PLEASE WORK FOR GOODNESS SAKE. I NEED TO LET OFF SOME STEAM, THE ONLY WAY IS VIA BLOGGING CAUSE I CANT SPAM PEEPS ON MSN, YOU KNOW WHY? BECASUE MSN ISNT WORKING, FARRRR OUT!

Have you already forgotten?

Despite the fact that I'm very forgetful, i still remember everything we shared. every single moment, every minute, every second i was with you was forever cherished in my heart. i believed you and now you repay me back like this? Am I some sort of toy to you? Did you think that i would forget everything and not feel any pain? Am I just a girl to you, like everyone else? Have you already forgotten, That i was the girl you turned to when you were hurt, That i was the one you wanted to spend your whole life with, That i was the one and only person in your life you could trust and rely on, That i was the girl you truly loved? Or was all that just a lie to lead me on? If you loved me as much as you said you did, then why cheat on me, then lie about it and now ignore me completely? Seeing you every Saturday and acting as if we've just met, kills me. Hearing you talk about you're love for that Mac Rob girl, Harshani is excruciating, seeing you flirt with Dillon and Cassi in English is agonizing... Do me a favour and leave EK ffs! I can't bare the sight of your sexy legs, thongs and sparkling eyes. Please, just leave me alone and save me from crying for all these nights. I miss you. The old you. The one i kissed on New Year's Eve. The one who posed with the basketball and uploaded it on facebook. The one who said he loved me ... Can i ask you one more thing? Malith babe, did you really mean it when you told me I looked groovilicious in that nurse outfit?

wow

the Mr Crinkled Jeans incident

the moment when you first approached me, on the vintage tram, was sexy. i was nervous; thoughts running through my mind of what to say, scared of akward silences. sitting next to you was uncomfortable, you were heating up teh seat with your hotness and it got to teh piotn when my gluteus maximas turned bright red when i came home. Our eyes were fixed while we were talking; youre eyes sparkled and it wiped all my nerves away. Our frienship matured quicker than i thought. we shared a special connection no one else could ever have within such a short period of time. our coolness, rebellness and bitchiness brought us closer from becoming good friends to best freinds and now lesbian lvoers. Although our relationship was important, it was suddenly shattered into broken pieces all because of a guy. Looking back i regret all the shit that happened. the tears and hatred over Mr. Crinkled Jeans. I was childish for letting this get in the way. Giving eaachother greasies, cyber bullying one another over fb and pulling eachother hair was nonsensical. Just Pathetic. Mr Crinkled Jeans ruined our friendship and i'm sincerely sorry. i take back everything i did to you and should have known not to let Mr Crinkled Jeasn get in between us, i mean who am i kidding? he obivously suits me more. i'm sorry to break it to you love, but its just how it is. But i'm sure we can let all this behind us for now. I'm exhilarated that our relationship is back on track after the Mr Crinkled Jeans incident. I love you, Zarki. I mean Uyen Van** and May we have babies together as cute as Emjay, as hot as Allen, as sexy as Dina and as Korean as Daniel Na May we recruit more people in the Crayola Club who are as cute as Binh, as hot as Tina, as sexy Ailan and as Korean as Brendon. May our friendship be as loving As Dillon's love for spam, As Michelle's lvoe for herself and her own jokes, As Janine's love for greasing, And as loving as Gavin's love for porn Amen.

the hug

I could feel something poke towards me from his pelvic region

As my body pressed up against his

And my neck up against his masculine neck

His head resting upon mine

It continued to poke at my stomach

I felt some sort of substance

Pressing up against my shirt

It was sticky

Very sticky

The cloudy substance

It formed a distorted shape upon my very expensive clothing

And as he walked away

Leaving me clueless

As to what was upon my shirt

I reaslied it was

PHO DAT BIET

Nah actually tbh, i dont even know what it is

But im sure it was eitehr that or ...

COCONUT MILK FROM THE VIETNAMESE STORE

And to my excitement

Before i could entice myself with any of my english homework

I licked my shirt dry

Of all coconut milk

Which was exerted with great force

From his cocnut milk extracts drink

The hug, will always be remembered.

Forever.

Credits to Dillon W

who helped me write this poem, from his perspective

DEE TO THE DUBBLE-YOOH

Although many would think that our friendship had only blossomed in such a short time, to me, reguardless of how long we have known eachoher for, you will always be considered as my one and only sex bomb. I remember first setting my eyes on you at the melb hi / mac rob testing. You were wearing a tank top, ripped flares and a dog tag necklace with 'DiLLiioNiZZ3r' on it in gangsta writing. we were both stressing about that important exam, but gazing into your eyes, gave me a calm feeling telling me to relax. it was as if you had this power over me, to soothe all my nerves. I thank you for that. From then on, i realised we had this special bond. And never do i once think to have regretted approaching you in the first place. The time we went to Northland to watch 500 Days of Summer.. I can never forget the brown breaming eyes of yours, that stared right back at mines. I will never forget that intimiate moment, when we were sitting right next to eachother, your arms around mine and gavin on the side, looking at us 8) Knowing you for 8 months or so I'd like to say Happy Birthday, and thank you for last night, it was special.

I hope you know who you are (:

I loathe you more than a pair of multi-coloured flares and $2.50 Target runners. Your vibe pisses me off, Can Peter and I slap you like really hard on your fugly face ?

the other girl

my first reaction, when i had liad my eyes on the girl that he was holding onto, was a slight notion of nausea and confusion. had i not laid the impression that i was into commitments? did he assume that i was just playing around, in hope that time would drift away quicker than usual? He looked into my eyes, as if he was trying to tell me something his mouth could not utter. i refused to feel pity for him. after all, why should i feel the need to oblige a sense of comfort for how he feels? he is no longer my buissness. The completely lost of trust. I no longer have someone to turn to during my darkest hour. No one to talk to about my day, about all the happy things that happened. No one i can turn to for comfort and love. Who would of thought that they girl he had his arms around tightly, was my best friend,Trena 'sexy_bubbles' Borrell. C.B Ciao Babes

the first post.

SUP SUP to the boyahs and girlies, since everyone's blogging, ill just join and be cool like all the bloggers out there (H) To all you SHOPPAHOLICS out there! Sportsgirl is having this mini sale AND they have make up products for like HALF PRICE. Dont you just hate it when you go browsing around and find a gazzilion things to buy but no money, and when you go on a shopping spreee, you go home with barely anything? GAHH! i only had 8 bucks so i bought this cheek brush, that was originally $14.95, and went down to $7.95, and when i got to the cashier, it went down by a FURTHER 30% OMGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD! SO I GOT A CHEECK BRUSH THAT WAS LIKE 15 DOLLARS FOR LIEK $5.50! Yeah call me sad, but that made my day :D AND JUST A FEW MINUTES AGO, SOMEHING ELSE JUST MADE MY DAY THAT MUCH BETTER, I JUST DISCOVERED THAT THE MELB HI SOCIAL IS ON MAY 28, WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOP! I LOVE LIFE RIGHT NOW OH SO MUCH. until next time, ciao babes